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Kisses
01:43
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I’ve kissed more girls than you,
But that doesn’t mean I think I’m better than you
I just think that it’s funny to say out loud
My body count maybe tops the charts,
But most of them whimsical at heart
Like kissing comrades on the lips for walking in the room to say hello
I’ve kissed more boys than you
But somehow I think I’m more man than you
For knowing what I’m going for when I lean in to lock lips
At least I know how to love someone
Deeper than knowing what they’ve done
And following my instincts when I wanna give them my love
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2. |
Caffeine Headache
05:24
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Mocha foam mixing into
Bubbles sliding up my spoon
Reminiscent of the galaxy
And how small a person should really feel
The clink of every cutlery brings back memories
Of breakfast in bed, a standing date
Canceled this morning
There’s pain in every word I speak
And hurt in every breath you keep
Dirt in every wound we reap
And tears on every sweatshirt sleeve
We keep trying to kill the monster
Inside of us when we dig down deep
Immortal in his nature he can only be fed
Or put to sleep
Coffee grounds pouring over
Food waste from the night before
If I get up early enough
Will I be able to set you up for a good day?
A glass of mind to ease your mind in hopes that you’ll unwind
And tell me lovingly that you’ll still support me
Even when you’re down
There’s pain in every word I speak
Maybe we’ll be okay after a good night’s sleep
There’s hurt in every breath you keep
I’ll try to be the person that you need
Maybe if I just get some sleep
I can be the person that you need
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3. |
Cloverleaf
04:08
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Every time I wash my clothes everything gets smaller
Colors bleeding beautiful ‘til everything melts to a dusty gray
Every time I lay to sleep feeling uninspired
I can’t even rest assured reaching my goals in my dreams
And maybe it’s a metaphor
Maybe I just passed my door long ago
Now I’m circling the cloverleaf looking for it again
Every time I wash my sheets everything gets tighter, lighter, brighter
Wash away skin particles that made me who I was last week
Stickers on my Nalgene bottle, brands I guess I like to rep
Friends whose music makes me sad for not following after them
I’m scared of what I’m longing for
‘Cause I think I passed my door long ago
Now I’m circling the cloverleaf looking for it again
Maybe it’s a metaphor
I guess that I just can’t be sure
I’m scared of what I’m longing for
‘Cause I think I passed my door long ago
Now I’m circling the cloverleaf looking for it again
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4. |
Abe Lincoln (La Di Da)
03:31
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I didn’t crash, I didn’t burn
I didn’t hear, I didn’t learn
Lessons no one bothered to teach
I didn’t scream, I didn’t cry
Didn’t even wonder why
In this life I live it all just feels the same
Then you came along and showed just what you mean to me
Then you came and saw what we could be
Then I could see just what I had with you
No one really knows what we’ve been through
Oh, you
La dee da da da da da
La dee da is what they said
When we all came crashing on their heads
La dee da da da da da
La dee da is what they said
When we came crashing down
So if I stumble and I fall
Will you hear me when I call?
Things are changing everyday
There’s no need for any laws
I embrace all of your flaws
I wouldn’t want you any other way
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5. |
Vinegar & Oil
04:16
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Moonbeams shining across your face
And I couldn’t help but stop and stare
If I had only realized
That I’d be someone better on my own
Waited my short life for you, dear
Thinking you’d be who I needed
To treat me like I wanted to be
Now I see that that person is me
Vinegar & Oil
No matter how we’re shaken up
We’re always mixed in, but never fully one
Love left out to spoil
But in the end when we both settle
Dynamic duos don’t always stay together
Bitter taste like no other
Burn my tongue on your salty love
You’ve got enough to go around
So burn your own tongue while every bridge falls down
I wipe your makeup and clean your insides
Providing tastes
So subtle, pure, but so important
It’s no wonder I always end on top
I wish that I could go home
But I don’t think that I’ll ever get there
If I just sit and stew inside my head
And think of all that could have been
I know that I can find peace
If I just sit back and let it crumble down
And reveal nothing but my dreams
You won’t be here to see come true
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6. |
Judas
04:39
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Judas hung by a thread
Dangling feet just above your head
And he said, “From what I see,
You’re so guilty.”
And Judas, I heard him say,
“The lord thinks that I am the one to betray,
But it seems that I may be the lesser of evils.”
And if he said to the preacher man,
“Forgive me, for I have sinned.”
He’d be forgiven in the blink of an eye,
And that’s more than I can say for you
All god’s sheep have the sharpest teeth
Condemn you for loving me
Revel in misogyny
You drove me down to hell with my mouth under your hand
All god’s sheep have the sharpest teeth
Casting stone while they can’t see
Flaunt salvation for the free
But only if you look exactly like them
Jesus never said,
“Separate kids from their mother’s own hand
Just because they’re from a distant, far off land.”
And Jesus never did say,
“Stone ‘em to death just because they’re gay.”
But it seems you wouldn’t have it
Any other way
And as we’re out here living it up in hell
There’s only one fight to lose
To live a life of love and peace and truth
Or lie down in a cross-ridden grave
Baptized from birth to adulthood
But never stopping to ask why
How could I ever be a part of you
If the heart of me is something you’d let die?
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7. |
Intermission
01:14
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8. |
Three Man Army
03:12
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9. |
I Found a Way
04:51
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The weight in my shoulders has lifted
The dark in my mind turned to light
A passage of time alone in my mind
Dusted off and made to feel brand new
Standing face to face with the mirror in my way
And finding that the only way around is from within
Touch me from the inside
Turn my thoughts upside down
Believe that I believe in you
To make me feel something that’s new
Spin me round like a puzzle piece
Waiting to be found
I never thought I’d feel this way again
I’m happy I found a way
Look back on the ways that I’ve known you
Whether or not you’ve known my whole truth
Forever in my memory of being who I used to be
And not being afraid to not forget
Standing on the brink of the nothingness below me
And knowing that when I fall down you’ll meet me on the ground
Sometimes I find myself run over
Gasping for air one last time
Remembering a bittersweet remnant of my youthfulness
Crowning from the shadows in my head
Running from myself as the memory takes over
The past is past and it’s been done but we’ll always be one
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10. |
When the Evening Comes
05:09
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When the evening comes
Shadows stretch along the walls
In front of me
The darkness brings along a comfort
Unfamiliar to me
And I plead
I do not understand what is done unto me
I will not lend a hand to what has forsaken me
Demons crouching in the corner
Patiently waiting for their turn
On my soul
For in the darkness of the evening
I elude their beck and call
And I am whole
I do not understand what is done unto me
I will not lend a hand to what has forsaken me
When the morning comes
Sunlight pours in through the window
On my face
Illuminating every corner
I am vulnerable to every
Cold embrace
I will never understand what is done unto me
I will not lend a hand to what has forsaken me
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11. |
Dance with Me
03:40
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I’ve been stressing too much
Trying to figure out what the plan is
Heard about it enough
I’m done with the over analysis
My worries’ taken their toll on me before
I’m done with moping around
So I say…
I wanna know
Can you check your things at the door
And dance with me baby
Dance, dance with me honey, honey
When the pressure comes off
Start to realize what I’m feeling
Cool with taking my time
So I don’t trample over my dreaming
My world has opened her arms around me
So baby take a deep breath and come with me
Let joy and kindness pervade
Don’t try to rain on my parade
I can’t keep on living life afraid
If we’re all feeling down
Let’s make this turn around
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12. |
Teach Me
04:09
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And when I see you again
I’ll have planned what to say
It’s been a decade but
I’ve learned the hard way
I’ve spent all of my time
Trying to preach to the choir
Cantoring on a song
Written for another congregation
Teach me humility
Set it as a seal upon my heart
Teach me dignity
So I can keep from falling apart
And when I see you again
I hope you recognize my face
I’ve been growing a lot
I hope that you can find some grace
I know it’s not your fault but when everything around me
Keeps bringing me down
The worst thing you could do to me is
Hear my voice and never come around
Teach me humility
Set it as a seal upon my heart
Teach me dignity
So I can keep from falling apart
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13. |
Post-Apocalyptic G.F.
02:42
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My post-apocalyptic girlfriend and I
Can always find something to do if we try
I know the world has gone to shit
And I’m kinda losing it
But I’m happy knowing she’s by my side
My post-apocalyptic girlfriend and me
Can have adventures any time that we please
Fighting viruses and fascism
I know I’ll always have someone
Right here who’s looking out for me
Oooh, She’s my everything
Oooh, She makes me wanna sing
Oooh, I want her to know that I love her so
And I will keep her to have and to hold
For every apocalypse in this world
My post-apocalyptic girlfriend and I
Can make the best of things when we wanna cry
We still get low down on ourselves
But I don’t want no one else
Fighting with me ‘til the day we die
Oooh, She’s my everything
Oooh, She makes me wanna sing
Oooh, I want her to know that I love her so
And I will keep her to have and to hold
For every apocalypse that I know
So while we’re slaying all the dragons and thieves
We’re just as deep in love as we are in peace
‘Cuz the world keeps spinning round and round
But we won’t let it get us down
My post-apocalyptic girlfriend and me
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Natalie Fideler Minneapolis, Minnesota
Natalie's music tastefully embodies the intersections of saccharine nerd rock, 90s female angst, and a singer-songwriter sensibility. Her funky fresh mix of pop, alt rock, and R&B will leave you dancing and ripping your heart out at the same time. Her vulnerable lyrics transform each song into a story that speaks the truth of raw human experience whether it be tongue in cheek or right on the nose. ... more
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